[ Blade can believe that - he knows when he was looking for, uh...someone, he managed to get by without leads too.
Or maybe it is that a certain element ended up becoming a lead. ]
...keep at it.
[ ... ]
Yes and no.
It's a complicated situation. Nothing straightforward. The person he is now is different from that person previous - even if they are irrevocably connected. [ Dan Heng can't separate himself from Dan Feng's sins, even if it doesn't mean he must hold onto them, and let them trap him. Even if to Blade, Imbibitor Lunae will still be his title, even as he acknowledges "Dan Heng". ] And not because he "changed for the better". It's more complex than most would think.
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[He notices the wagasa in his hands, staring owlishly at it.]
What is that? I saw it before...
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[ Unfortunately, Blade barely knows what this thing even is. Besides an umbrella of some kind. ]
It was in the garden last week. Then it was in a different place this week - where that pretender [ Ish ] showed up.
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Do you think Ish made it? Why?
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It could be by someone else.
[ Spoken after a spot of thought. ]
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[Huh...]
Who could it be, then? One of us?
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[ But, looking at the handmade item, he doesn't look like he finds it without merit. ]
It could be. Though, I don't or wouldn't understand the purpose. Since it seems to hardly do much.
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Maybe you should ask Ish about it.
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[ Though at the suggestion... ]
May as well.
He could end up accidentally spilling information.
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Oh? You think you can interrogate him? That's what...Barawa told me he does for suspects.
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[ As a man of few words rather than many, Blade isn't one to do such things with ease.
But, it gives him an idea in how to frame his asking, perhaps. This will either go swimmingly or very badly, there is no in-between. ]
I'll do that. I'll see what happens.
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[go blade goooooo get that bread]
...Anyways. How...are you feeling?
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[ He will do his best to get all that bread! ]
...better than last week. It was inconvenient having our emotions toyed with.
[ Pause. ]
But has that changed much for you?
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[He seems confused, eyebrows crossing together.]
I admit, I'm not used to...that many feelings. I guess.
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[ He could have used more words for that. But, anyway... ]
...but, that is an answer.
Is it because of your experiences? Outside of here.
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[As matter of fact as anything.]
My role millennia ago did not require me to...feel things.
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[ Blade vaguely remembers something about that because it was noteworthy. Even with his shoddy memory. ]
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[An uncomfortable pause.]
Is that really your name? Blade?
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[ Blade takes a momentary pause himself. ]
It is my name.
I became a blade and so that is who and what I am.
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[For that person...]
Did you decide to become one? Or did someone make you into one?
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[ Either way, sure is a way to describe someone. ]
Somewhere in the middle.
I had no choice but to become one because of what I ended up becoming from someone else's actions.
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[He admits, quietly.]
But I'm looking, as much as I can. Wherever...I can.
[.......]
That so. [He remembers to that first week, and that stern young man.] Is it because of....him?
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Or maybe it is that a certain element ended up becoming a lead. ]
...keep at it.
[ ... ]
Yes and no.
It's a complicated situation. Nothing straightforward. The person he is now is different from that person previous - even if they are irrevocably connected. [ Dan Heng can't separate himself from Dan Feng's sins, even if it doesn't mean he must hold onto them, and let them trap him. Even if to Blade, Imbibitor Lunae will still be his title, even as he acknowledges "Dan Heng". ] And not because he "changed for the better". It's more complex than most would think.